9-11Sunday

We increased my lamictal again. We have been thinking for several weeks that the lamictal was making things worse but in desperation to find a medicine that worked we wanted to be 100% sure. Well we now know that it is definitely making things worse. We increased it again and my seizures are out of control. It has also affected my personality. I’m very fussy and I want mommy or whoever is keeping me to hold me all day long. Some of the seizures are also making me cry. It’s not very many maybe 5 a day but when I say cry I mean a terrified screaming with real tears. It’s absolutely horrible for me and it’s also horrible for my family to watch. Since it is the weekend and my neuro isn’t on call, my mommy is just going to go back down on the lamictal. We will see our neuro Tuesday and I’m sure she will give us a plan to wean off the lamictal. I don’t understand why these medicines make my seizures worse. They have all made them worse with the exception of vimpat and banzel. The banzel helped alot in the beginning but then stopped working. The vimpat has done absolutely nothing. The only other thing that has helped is steroids. I know it sounds crazy but last week when I pulled up and started crawling, I had just come off of steroids. I had to be put on them because of a bite I had on my leg. I was only on it for a week and look at the progress I made. Not only do I have a rare seizure disorder but I do not follow the books in any way. I’m very thankful for how far I’ve come. I know that it’s our faith and prayers that have gotten us this far. I will win this battle one day. I’m too determined to give up now!!!

Considering all that is happening in my world and your world, is it any wonder that as I selected a random Though for the Day that this is the one God led me to?

I thought you might enjoy listening to these people who tried to predict what the future held:

“That rainbow song’s no good. Take it out.” – MGM memo after first showing of The Wizard Of Oz.

“You’d better learn secretarial skills or else get married.” – Modeling agency, rejecting Marilyn Monroe in 1944.

“Radio has no future.” “X-rays are clearly a hoax”. “The aeroplane is scientifically impossible.” – Royal Society president Lord Kelvin, 1897-9.

“You ought to go back to driving a truck.” – Concert manager, firing Elvis Presley in 1954.

“Forget it. No Civil War picture ever made a nickel.” – MGM executive, advising against investing in Gone With The Wind.

“Can’t act. Can’t sing. Slightly bald. Can dance a little.” – A film company’s verdict on Fred Astaire’s 1928 screen test.

“The atom bomb will never go off – and I speak as an expert in explosives.” – U.S. Admiral William Leahy in 1945.

“Television won’t matter in your lifetime or mine.” – Radio Times editor Rex Lambert, 1936.

“Everything that can be invented has been invented.” – director of the US Patent Office, 1899.

“And for the tourist who really wants to get away from it all, safaris in Vietnam.” – Newsweek magazine, predicting popular holidays for the late 1960s.

Predicting the future is a difficult thing to do. And yet we often wonder, what does the future hold for me? What does God have in mind for my life? Who will I marry? What will happen to me when I grow old? How can I make it through the pain or sorrow I’m experiencing right now? Will things ever get better?

“Hear my cry, O God; attend to my prayer. From the end of the earth I will cry to You, when my heart is overwhelmed; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For You have been a shelter for me, a strong tower from the enemy. I will abide in Your tabernacle forever; I will trust in the shelter of Your wings.” (Psalm 61:1-3).

I like this quote (author unknown): “Christians don’t know what the future holds, but we know who holds the future.” May you take comfort in that knowledge this day.

Have a great day!

Alan Smith
Boone Church of Christ
Boone, NC